my life?

so spring break was freaking awesome. we had some great times at daytona....and all got a little bit closer i believe. i beat travis at mini golf. i mean that was pretty much the highlight of our crazy spring break trip. the beach was gorgeous and we got in the ocean every day. there were lots of sting rays though and that freaked me out. i think my boyfriend is dating luis now. just look at the facebook pictures. it's creepy. now we're all sick as dogs though. i've been feeling like SHIT all day but that's okay. the health center was completely pointless. he told me i'll feel better by the end of the week and i was like you idiot give me something to feel better now. oh well!

and just for ms. hines b/c she specifically said she hates people who celebrate monthly anniversaries, i would like to wish my travis a belated happy five months. lol who got you now stephanie?

theres no hope now

well i hate to admit this guys......but there is kinda like a few country songs i like now. i know travis has corrupted me. i really don't know how he did it. but seriously i do like rascal flatts now.
especially this song:

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you
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    bless the broken road

happy birthday martin

i read your facebook wall today, and just about everyone who goes to uga seemed to have commented. you've been gone since july, yet nothing has changed. we are still missing you each and every day. i miss you so much that i don't even feel like there is an adjective to describe the way i feel. i keep going everyday, the world hasn't stopped, but it's not the same and it never will be. without you here, everything is a duller, lifeless, depressing... i know you're sitting around in heaven wondering why we are all so "emo" as you would call it. i keep thinking that i will see you, that you will pop out right by the psychology building and walk me to class. I keep thinking you will be here tonight, and we will all brave the snow to walk downtown only to find amicis is closed. but you won't be here, and that's the hardest part to accept. maybe i'm selfish and i just want you to be here for me, but i can't help it. i hope you see how much we loved you, i hope you know that each and every day. i would give anything to walk down hall 7d and here your laugh again, to hear you talk about the girl with the perfect curly hair, or to relive that night when you were in a christmas carol. that night was perfect, you were perfect. you were never afraid to be you, even if people didn't like it. you were loud, funny, and out there for the wolrd to see. we all bugged you about it at the time but now it's what we miss the most. if only i could hear the brick joke one more time. i try to tell people, but it's just not funny when i tell it. the thing i think i respected the most about you was the way you loved people. you loved with all of your heart, never worrying if that love was not returned. you never asked if we deserved it, and i regret everyday not telling you how much i loved you. you were the type of friend that people only dream of. you would give anything to help others, to make us smile. and i wouldn't trade those memories with you for anything in this entire world. you made me realize that there are still people out there who live like each day is their last, who bring the upmost joy to others. just getting to know you for one year was an experience i will never forget, always cherish, and hold close to my heart. you are where you were truly meant to be now, and this gives me comfort though the long nights. for now you are what you were to me on earth, an angel. i love you martini.
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    the luckiest

to travis

i haven't updated much recently. honestly i don't really have much to say. but this is what i need to say now. i'm sorry that i haven't been the best girlfriend lately. and i know you hate it when i say i'm sorry but i'm going to do it anyways. so here is a list, shortened of course, of the reasons i like you:

_you always sing at the top of your lungs even when i tell you that you sound horrible
-you offered to drive to the store to buy me potatoes so you can make me garlic potatoes
-on our first date, you picked doc cheys so i could eat vegetarian foods
-you got me my mushroom
-you liked me so much that you thought of me when you were watching garden state
-my apple, enough said
-you listen to my "moans" in the mornings and rub my head when i hit it against the wall
-you always save the oatmeal cream pies for me
-you hold my hand even when we're with your friends
-you tell me i'm beautiful when i wake up in the morning and look horrible
-you watch me when i sleep
-you come and read my livejournal to make sure i'm happy
-you take me to the pizza hut in target, just kidding
-you told the people at chiles it was mandis birthday just to make us all laugh
-you tolerate me when i'm jealous, bitchy, depressing, moody, and just about all the time
-you watch dawson's creek with me, and i know you'll kill me for admitting that
-you didn't laugh at me when i cried when i read harry potter
-you always make me smile, even when i'm trying hard not to
-you saved that note i wrote you and put it by your mirror
-you always let me have the green pillows because you know i like them more
-you bug me until i tell you what's wrong
-you always talk to my grandma, even when she rambles for hours about nothing
-you found a necklace just like the one i lost and bought it for me for chirstmas
-we bought each other the same gift
-you never stop trying to make me happy, even when i make it hard.
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the new year and all that

well i don't usually update this thing cause i don't feel like my life is that interesting but hmmm new years reflections. i had an awesome new years eve last night, probably the best ever. went to a party in athens with all my friends, and everyone had soooo much fun. we've got the pics to prove it. and of course got to kiss my favorite guy at midnight. couldn't have been better. 2005 was a really tough year i guess. so much stuff happened, a lot of it good but some bad too. i know it's typical to say i learned a lot about myself but i really think i did. i was presented with some pretty tough shit, and i may not have handled it perfectly but just getting through it counts for something. i think martin's death was the hardest thing i've had to deal with.....well maybe ever. i think about him still all the time, but i'm thankful that i even got to spend the short amount of time that i did with him. i know that it brought me closer to a lot of people, made me realize how truly valuable my friends really are. if there were a few more people like him in the world, it would be a much better place. but even though there was lots of bad this year, there was tons of good. my amazing friends that always stand by me, even when i'm a total bitch. and i know i am sometimes. this year i also met travis. i'll be the first to admit that our relationship isn't perfect, but what relationship is. the important thing is no matter how dumb it sounds he makes me happy. he's there for me when i know i don't deserve it because he sees me at my worst. so theres my oveall thoughts on the year 2005, and hopefully 2006 will be even better.
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Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yours" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I tear off the tops of bananas and don't eat them. I dunno why but the texture just freaks me out.

2. I talk in my sleep. Not just normal talking, but I mummble words that make no sense whatsoever. I will actually tap Travis until he wakes up and get mad at him if he does not respond to me.

3. I hate sponges and refuse to use them. I think they are disgusting and unsanitary and if anyone ever washes dishes with them, I will not eat off that dish if I can get around it.

4. I eat cereal w/o milk b/c I don't like soggy cereal.

5. Before I take a test, I recopy all of my notes from that chapter in different colors. It's totally psycho but it's the only way I learn it.

TAGGED: Jamie, Elizabeth(if she reads this), Megumi, Stephanie, and Joy

from joysephenalina

Name 10 things in no particular order that make you happy and tag five others.

1.pasta roni
2.morning sex
4.reading harry potter
5."study breaks"
6.uga football fri-neds
9.flip flops
10. travis :)

hmmm...i tag piegirl04, squareballoon, cluelessmeg1019, renrave67,iceman1138

wasting time before class

i have over an hour break in between my stat and bio labs but i know if i go home i will basically walk in the door, shove some food in my mouth, then walk out to find myself just missing the bus. lol it's the only bad part of living off campus. being crammed in with too many people on one bus with no personal room and i never get a seat, NEVER. i can't even reach the lil bar b/c i'm too short, which honestly is probably pretty amusing to watch. :) this week has overall been pretty good. lately i've been getting no sleep, but thats okay. te he he. i'm attempting to learn raquetball once again so i can have a hobby. me and travis played for almost an hour and a half i think yesterday. i some how managed to hit myself right in the face when i hit the ball against the wall. i'm excited about this weekend b/c we're all going to go to a corn maze and/or a haunted house and me and trav are going to see elizabethtown. i've been really happy and relaxed lately, which is nice for a change. school is going really well this semester. i kinda need to get a job though. oh well i'll eventually decide to stop being lazy.
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    the library noises

only in athens

last night the funniest thing happened. we were driving back from a friends party in jamies car, both her and i were sober, but everyone else had been drinking. so there is a dui roadblock and the conversation went as follows:

Cop: Has everyone in the car been drinking tonight?
Jamie: Yes sir.
Cop: Have you been drinking?
Jamie: Oh no, no sir.
Cop: Okay go on through.

lol that was funny shit. jamie even said yes and he just was like okay. jamie steiner i love you.
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    let go