this is not seriously happening. i can't even process this right now. mandi just called me five minutes ago and told me martin had a seizure and died last night. i don't even know how to begin to deal with this. martin was such a great person. i was supposed to go to his show tonight, i was supposed to hang out with him, and now i'll never see him again. i don't even think it's truely hit me yet. i have to be at work in a few minutes b/c i'm only on break now. god how are you supposed to deal with death? i've been through it before and it never gets any easier, not that i supposed it ever should. just keep martin's family and friends in your prayers. i can't even think enough to write anything else right now.